I carry a lot of guilt on my shoulders.
1.) I slow down the pace of life a lot for others. I feel like I ruin a lot for others.
2.) There are times I can't get up and do things so I often feel like a burden.
3.) I know the emotional toll arthritis has caused for my family and friends. I hate that I put them through that.
4.) I might have arthritis, but I know it's not as severe as some others who I've met. I've never needed surgery or braces or anything. I feel the immense guilt of not being able to relate and that I'm not strong enough because I'm complaining.
5.) I just take Enbrel and it's actually working.... Why did I find something? Why me? Why not someone who has it harder than me?
6.) I haven't had a flare since I was eight. And I know people who are in and out of them.
7.) When people ask me how the arthritis is or how my medicines are working, I tend to bring down the mood. Even though it might be good news, people seem to always act depressed when I say that I still have arthritis and I still have to take medicine.
8.) I feel guilt when I admit I'm in pain. That's because even though I know that my joints are throbbing (like they are now), I know that it could be so much worse.
But of course, I don't let this bring me down too much since I know that I did nothing too cause my arthritis and I know it's not my fault.