Procrastination and Fatigue

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I'm what they call, a 'speed reader.' And about two months ago, my friend let me borrow this book by one of my favourite authors. I looked at the size of it and figured it would be easy to finish. I still haven't finished it. It's not that the book is challenging, it's that I literally cannot pull myself to read it. I only very recently have picked it up and enjoyed reading it. I'm halfway and I'm determined to finish it. I want to know what happens. Or at least I keep telling myself that.

You see, I keep telling myself I want to finish it. I know in life there are going to be things I don't want to do at all, but I'm going to have to finish anyway. It's hard when you have to do  something that seems unnecessary or unpleasant, but it's in completing these tasks we tend to feel most satisfied. Worrying about a task seems to take more energy than doing it and then never having to think about it again. And to a person who has fatigue from their disease, the second option is way more preferable. I know it's not always possible, but I fight through the fatigue. It may not be good for my health, but sometimes it's just not possible to rest.

Dear Arthur,
Why do deadlines always seem to come when your acting up?
Love,
Elizabeth

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  1. AriannaJanuary 19, 2013 at 8:24 AM

    Lately, the fatigue has been the hardest thing for me to deal with. I just feel exhausted all the time. But I also try to push through it, because sleeping through my entire life doesn't sound like much fun.

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    1. ElizabethJanuary 19, 2013 at 11:57 AM

      Me too.
      True, it doesn't sound like fun, but it's quite tempting at times. :)

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